When the time comes

Page 6-a maritime cadet's story

I hope you don’t think I’m crazy for what I’ m about to say

But I have to tell you now it can’t wait another day

‘Cause before we know it November will be here

And I might be going no longer anywhere near

I’ve fallen for you like I’ve never fallen before

And I don’t think I could be more sure

About the way I feel when I see you smile at me

I know for a fact that we’re meant to be

For some reasons our conversations just never die

And whenever we’re together I can’t help but smile

No one had that effect on me in quite a while

And not to mention the way I feel whenever we touch

I’ve never really wanted to held you so much

It’s the simplest things that you always know what to do

That makes me fall so hard for you

You found the path that leads straight to my heart

And you’ve earned yourself a very big part

I trust you now with every part of me

And I am hoping that you aren’t too blind to see

I love you now and as more than a best friend

And no length or distance could make my feelings end

I’ll wait here forever; I’ll do what I have to do

Every risk is worth it when it comes to loving you

But I need to go for now to secure our future

And prove to myself that I’m now mature

Mature enough to traverse the way of life

Before I can fetch that fruit of yours which is ripe

And when the time comes that I’m finally done with what I have to do

I’ll come back for you and we’ll make your dreams come true.

This event happens during the first semestral break last two years ago. The first time I used those three sacred words halfheartedly. I guess that’s how selfish I really am. I thought that was the right thing to do ‘cause she’s been the one who’s there for me during that sad moment of my life that opened me up to things I never anticipated before. I found out that 2I’m not a true child of the family I used to call my own. I felt bitter about it but because of her I was able then to move on and duly accept that fact. I thought I really felt something for her but it’s all a mistake in the end. Fortunately, I was able to right that. One time when I visited her, I told her that I’m still confused of what I’m feeling at that time and I don’t want to make her expect something from me. I believe she understands that. I thought she would leave me but she instead stay as close as she is. That really caught me by surprise. We’re still friends, no, we’re best friends and I hate telling her about my escapade here in the academy about the new one who caught my fancy. Yeah, I fell once again to the dark pit of love… and this time to someone (can’t be named) that is strictly prohibited… a classmate. It’s on the rules. But that’s not the problem. It’s what can’t happen and me. Most dreams are meant to be just that. Unrequited love is too bad for it sometimes drains the other person. Luckily, I was able to retain some for myself. And I’m so thankful that it did not prosper in the first place for it will only make matters worst. This is due to the fact that something unexpected occurred again.