Whatever Happen

Page 5-a maritime cadet's story

Please don’t make me choose

Between you and what I have to do

That’s definitely the one thing I’m totally out of clue

And consequently the one thing I thought you’d never ask me to

You’re asking me to prove my love is real

And I’m sure I know exactly how you feel

But you don’t understand how much I love you

Just because I’m doing what I have to

If you know that it’s for us then you’d be okay

But I won’t try that again, so anyway…

I trust that I’m doing what’s best for you and me

And I know that it is so hard for you to see

But let me say this, I’ve proven my love before

And every moment of each day I love you even more

I need to cleanse myself from all of my sins

It’s one of the things I need to win

So I can clear everything between us especially the gap

Like I said on this journey, it’s not weak to use a map

It was still your life just with direction

And every now and then we need to have a vision

But no one can talk you into love

You have to want it and fly like a dove

But if you know one thing please know this

I love you like my very first kiss

You’re one of a kind no one else can replace

And I still want us to work even with all this space

But we won’t change not even for the best

Even though my faith and love for you will never rest

It’s just so sad ‘cause we could have it all

And I want to catch you but you’d rather fall

There’s so much chaos that I can’t make you be with me

I just wish there was a way I could make you see

But I’ve tried and I’ve tried and it just doesn’t work

I’m starting to feel now that I’m in a bottle with a cork

I still love you like no one ever before

And despite it all I’m still 100% sure

That if we could just go the exact same way

We’d find ideal happiness but you choose to live just okay

But whatever happens know this is true
You’re my first love, and I will always love you.

And so the relationship ended as it is though we still both know that the feelings were still there. I’ve made a promise to myself that when all I need to do, all of my life-bounded task, is done I will come back for her and that time I will never ever let the two of us be apart from each other again. Unfortunately, I myself broke that promise. I was on the verge of finishing that task when something happened I was not able to foresee which caught me off-guard. And again I have to leave her for that. I was able to seek refuge in this academy to be able to work up on that interference and finally finish what I need to. Yeah, in this academy I was able to find the haven I needed, from the fast-pace life outside the academy walls, I was able to be back on myself again. This has been the break I’ve been wanting so much. During this stay, I have someone outside the academy that was always there for me and I treasure her for that. I don’t really know what I feel for her, but I have a clue that I always see in her my first love. The greatest mistake about that is that I took advantage of her feelings, this time ruining the essence of what love truly is. This has been the greatest mistake of my life.